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At my next appointment with Dr. R, sunlight breaks through the clouds and comes in his office window. On the street below, rain soaks the pavement. The two together seem wrong: sun, rain.
I face Dr. R and take in his encouraging smile. His white shirt is perfectly crisp. I try to smile too, then glance back at the sunlight and the wet pavement. Without looking at him, I say, âI donât want to change my medsâever,â hearing the tremor in my voice. Iâm still wreckedâshaky, cold-sweaty, brain-zappingâfrom having tried to go off my medications.
This is my second mistake in moving toward recovery from mental illness. Before that, Iâd linked recovery to ânormalcyâ believing I shouldnât be in therapy. It seemed obvious: ânormalâ people donât need therapy or take psychotropic drugs; recovered people shouldnât either.
If Iâd had the guidance of Dr. R or someone whoâd recovered, theyâd have told me how wrong I was. Some people have been on medication for so long that their bodies are dependent. Withdrawal had already brought me to the brink of ending my life twice; this time, it brought me close enough to vow never to try to go off my meds again.
Iâve come up with a new strategy. Changing my medicationsâgoing off one to try another, upping the dosage of this one, lowering the milligrams of that oneâhas only complicated my mental health struggles. When new drugs and dosages are changed and changed again, itâs impossible to know what helps and what harms, how much is the drugs and how much is the result of mental illness. I now have a baseline where the side effects are minimal. Having the drugs in my system is my normal. And it doesnât mean Iâm sick.
Dr. R nods. âOkay. Any reason you donât want to ever change your meds, ever again?â He says this slowly.
I tell him my baseline theory. Whatever painful emotions, troubling thoughts, and unwanted behaviors come, I wonât answer them with medication changes.
Dr. R nods, Got it. Not a problem. âUltimately, itâs your treatment.â
I look out the window onto Michigan Avenue at the cars streaming through the stoplight. Itâs hard to make that decision and have him agree. Until then, I did as my doctors told me to do. Should I really be the one to determine whatâs best for me?
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Had I known about the principle of shared-decision making in psychiatric treatment, I may not have hesitated. For two decades, studies have shown that treatment tailored to patient preferences is associated with
greater engagement in treatment,
an improved therapeutic relationship,
increased patient satisfaction, and
improved outcomes of care.1
That doesnât mean a clinician isnât involved, just that treatment is aimed at recovery, not maintenance as it is now, i.e., weâre given the chance to do more than just âmanageâ our symptoms. And treatment isnât determined by the clinician and accepted by the patient. The clinician may make suggestions, but the patient is in charge.
I know how that may sound. I can imagine how it would have sounded to my mother during my worst times. How could Iâchronically suicidal and unable to live independentlyâreally determine my own treatment?
Maybe I couldnât have been in charge while in crisis. Someone in a psychotic or manic or suicidal or depressive episode may not have the inner resources to do that.
Self-determined treatment takes that into account. It involves deciding what we want when weâre in remission, i.e., stable, or even before we ever walk into a mental health professionalâs or GPâs office. A mental health advance directive.
It might come in the form of the shared decision-making card developed by Maria OâConnell and Janis Tondora, both professors of psychiatry and researchers in the Program for Recovery and Community Help at Yale School of Medicine.
On the shared-decision making card, patients mark the three most important things they want from their clinician and treatment, e.g., obtain medication that works for me, ask who I want to be involved in my care, respect my time, be informed of all options for treatment, receive an accurate diagnosis, not be rushed.
OâConnell and Tondora stress how important this could be for someone in crisis. And think how it could serve young peopleâor any of usâin preparation for when we have to articulate our mental health needs.
A card like thisâor a documentâcan only help our clinicians. We ask so much of them. They canât be everything and all to us. They canât know what we need if we donât tell them. To get the best treatment, we have to create our own care.
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Shared-decision making likely wouldnât exist as a principle if not for the Recovery Movement. Unfortunately, the day I sat in Dr. Râs office, Iâd never heard of the movement. During my twenty-five years in the mental health system, no one mentioned it. I was in and out of hospitalization programs, in and out of psychiatristsâ and therapistsâ and GPsâ offices, and it never came up. Iâd learned about Sigmund Freud and cognitive behavioral therapy and second-generation anti-psychotics and a lot of misinformation about the supposed chemical imbalance theory of mental illness (which would turn out to be and always have been totally false) but nothing about the legions of people and groups in the Recovery Movement who have been trying to tell us that we can, in fact, recover from mental illness, even serious mental illness, and psychiatric disorders if we receive the right treatment.
The right treatment depends on self-directed care. Since the 1970s, the Recovery Movement has focused on patientsâ rights. By then, the government policy to close psychiatric institutions and replace them with community mental health centers had failed. Only a third of the promised mental health clinics had been built, inpatient beds were scant, and funds meant for community services ended up mired in bureaucracy or wasted on maintaining the remaining dilapidated institutions.
During this period, a group of strong-willed ex-patients set out to abolish the mental health system, liberate patients whoâd been abused and mistreated in psychiatric institutions, and create a new system of care. The movementâs core members took their cues from the civil rights movement, including Black Power and gay pride, coining the term insane pride. Various groups organized the movement, including the Insane Liberation Front based in Portland, Oregon (1970); the Mental Patientâs Liberation Front in Boston (1971); the Mental Patient Liberation Project in New York City (1971); and the Network Against Psychiatric Assault in San Francisco (1972).
The movement went by various names: the Mental Patient Liberation Movement, the Psychiatric Survivorâs Movement, and the Ex-Patients Movement. In most cases, non-patients werenât allowed. Often, membership was limited to patients whoâd been hospitalized; those whoâd received outpatient care didnât qualify. Mental health professionals were occasionally granted a tangential connection to some groups.
At first, they sought to overturn psychiatry, not improve the current system. To them, psychiatry was a capitalist industrial complex. Reform wasnât possible, only abolition. The slogan âNothing about us without usâ sent the message that mainstream psychiatryâs days were numbered.
The movementâs leaders focused on fighting for the rights of âpsychiatric prisonersâ based on their own experiences. Howie Geldâa.k.a., Howie the Harp, a nickname given in honor of his love for the harmonica, which he learned to play while institutionalized after a suicide attempt as a teenagerâran the Mental Patientsâ Liberation Party and eventually founded the Community Access mental health center in New York City. Leonard Roy Frank, a one-time graduate of the Wharton School of Business who was hospitalized for paranoid schizophrenia and subjected to thirty-five rounds of ECT treatments and thirty-five psychosurgeries, was one of the primary writers on the staff of Madness Network News, the movementâs media outlet, which published the views of ex-inmates and psychiatric survivors. Other pivotal activists included Sally Zinman, Dan and Su Budd, Tom Wittick, Dorothy Weiner, Tanya Temkin, and Rae Unzicker.
Judi Chamberlin, a self-described âcrusader,â was the movementâs most visible spokesperson. When she was in her twenties, she sought treatment for postpartum depression. After her first office visit, a psychiatrist quickly prescribed her two potent antipsychotics: Thorazine and Stelazine. She didnât improve. The psychiatrist said she should be hospitalized. Over six months in 1966, she went in and out of six New York hospitals. She went into treatment a housewife suffering from depression and came out a patient diagnosed with âchronic schizophrenia with homicidal and suicidal tendencies.â
With the help of a psychologist and finding purpose in the Womenâs Liberation Movement, she recovered and joined the cause for patientsâ rights.
Her 1978 book On Our Own: Patient-Controlled Alternatives to the Mental Health System called for a system in which people with mental illnesses werenât âpassive recipients of institutional âcareââ and instead were encouraged âto see the strong and positive aspects of themselves as they, in turn, help others.â As Dan Fisherâa protĂŠgĂŠ of Chamberlinâs and a clinical psychiatrist who healed from schizophrenia and has been working in the Recovery Movement since its inceptionâtold me, if the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM) is psychiatryâs âbible,â On Our Own was and is the Recovery Movementâs âbible.â
The Recovery Movement made history-making strides throughout the 1970s. Privately funded community centers run by those with lived experience of mental illness started across the country: Horizon House in Philadelphia, Fellowship House in Miami, The Green Door in Washington, D.C., and Thresholds in Chicago. These centers managed to keep their doors open without proper funding or government support, so determined were they to give people the ways and means to heal.
Fifty years ago, those in the Recovery Movement knew that healing occurs when patients are treated as human beings, play a role in their treatment, are given the opportunity to recover, and arenât assumed to be suffering from chronic conditions. As Phyllis Vine points out in Fighting for Recovery: An Activists' History of Mental Health Reform, the term chronically mentally ill riled those in the movement.Â
Chronic typically means persistent but is often understood to mean lifelong. As Stephanie Bernell and Steven Howard, researchers in public health, show, there is no uniform definition of chronic, not even within the Department of Health and Human Services. Some say itâs any condition lasting longer than three months, some longer than a year, some âof long duration,â and some simply an illness that âcannot be cured.â
The general idea behind the term is that our conditions are hopeless. They arenât. Not when we dictate our own care. Those in the Recovery Movement knew this, as do so many today.
Continue to Chapter 10.
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